Scribbled Thoughts & Coffee

Après moi, le déluge.

The cloudless sky stretches in to eternity, leaves blanket the ground they crinkle under foot. My heels tap against the cobble street as a crisp wind engulfs me. Faceless pedestrians push past me, they never look me in the eyes, cars thunder past in the chaotic slumber of my daily life.

When I was 6 my mother was depressed, she could not get out of bed. The house was heavy, rain always drizzled, wine bottles cluttered the floor. A soft lullaby of cries and screams hushed me to sleep. Every morning I would bring her a hot chocolate to help her out of bed.  My memories were false, nightmares were my reality.

My body traps me, my essence strangles me. I scream. Each breath is heavy and forced, at times I forget how to breath, how to walk.

My coffee is now cold, my head is spinning, my stomach aching.. I try to stuff down the demons, the reality. Through my writing I scream, in silence I wail.

Yet still, sun shines, oceans caress white sands, life goes on. Appreciate, for you in all your nothingness hold so much more than many.



This entry was published on August 6, 2012 at 11:24 am. It’s filed under appreciation, change, Coffee, Escape, Inspiration, Life, loneliness, Philosophy, Time and tagged , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Follow any comments here with the RSS feed for this post.

3 thoughts on “Après moi, le déluge.

  1. I can’t even tell you how much this post hits home! Gorgeous words, my love xoxo

  2. I always relate to your writing – I feel as if we are forever on the same page. 🙂

  3. Such a poetic post. Your words are always so hauntingly beautiful. I love how they never have a beginning or an end.. like the name suggests, it’s just scribbled thoughts.

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